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hey all..
i'm so down today..to be specific on the afternoon(morning pun ada juak la)..hmm..i met his twin brother ba..so sad ehhh..i never tot i will see him again ba(in this case, his twin brother..still d same, dh twin, sama la muka) hmmm..i need sumone to talk to..i need him ba..i cannot mcm tok everyday..evetho i x tgk nya but i still think about nya..haih~ seksa lalu2 rasa ba..why is d world not fair when it's come to love? hmmm..why do i haf to be so unlucky in love? izzit karma? haih~must be lahh..hmmm..what if one day i terjumpa him with other girl? can i like polah beysa2 jak? i noe i xpat polah beysa2 jakk..haih~ dis is why i don't like here so much..mun pusin2 d ctok, gerenti terjumpa last2..haih~~ why does it haf to be so hard..i feel like crying but then i don't want to coz i think he don't deserved my tears but then, i still want to cry oso..ooo daddy~ can i move out from miri? i feel so terseksa dudok in miri..shyt~ i hate u miri! i hate u! i hate u people in miri! u guys r so bad! kesian me..dh la i haf no frends here! f*uck u miri! i wanna get out from dis narrow minded town! i mok balit KL balit..plz mummy nd daady! i cannot tahan live in miri..to many aek mata oredy i buang kat dis negeri..i'm so HURT by the people! shyt double shyt nd on top of it shyt summore! arghhh~!! i'm so freakin pissed..pfft~ why d world haf to be so mean (to me especially~)! seksa baa i live in dis town..wtf~! waaa!! i want to cry but i haf no one to pujuk me..double shyt summore..u may see me smiling ear to ear, laughing like pig..but inside, i'm so empty..freaking empty..nothing..goose egg..nadda!
why does it haf to be ended up like dis? why god? why? hmmm..i noe, for some reason..this is a test from god to me..but i cannot tahan the "emotionally abbused" pun effect ba..it effect my study ba..haih~ gila lah me..stop meeza, STOP! u haf to stop nd move on..no matter what happen, u still haf ur family..haih~ i always said to my self..i don't give a shyt about him, i dun give a daymn psl hidup nya..but then, in the endd..i do give a shyt, i do give a daymn about him..haih~ life is so unpredictable..why do i get involve in dis kind of stuff? haih~ padan muka myself la, go kenja2 around people..hmm..but i donno..it's not my fault jak baa..i'm so scared of commitment but den he's d one who convincing me everything will be ok but in the end he's d one who break my heart..haih~ people nowadays..promise org mmg xpat d pakey gik kinek tok..haih~ why do i haf to be so unlucky? hmm~ o god, plz..plz help me..give me some signs dat i can live happily after dis..oo plz! nd plz make my mouth shut n think about other's problem is bigger den mine..haih~ and be grateful i still haf my family..oh cuzzens, plz balit miri..i need u guys now! i refuse to think psl all dis stuff but den argghh~ wth..my head kept thinking about dis problem everytime i'm alone or TerThinking bout him..double shyt again! hmmm..i need ice-cream! chocolate! i can eat like pig right now..sumpah~! but i dun feel like eating..haih~ meeza, meeza..why u jd like dis? why? hmm~ because of one guy u kenal like half of the year u jd mcm tok? it is so not worth it babe..hmmm..but it is u..i noe myself ba..if i like one guy i can be so head over heals..hmmm~ why do i haf to be like dis? oo shyt..i hate it ba when i started to ngerepak like dis..haih~ i noe i will ngerepak summore when i meet leyna on wednesday(hopefully jadi..i miss her so much!)
Oh lord, do give me strength to lead my life as normal as possible like any other student..only haf problem when it comes to study..i don't want ney, i refuse to haf a problem in love life anymore..i'm too young for dat(now, baru sedar! cheh!)..i'll pass if sumone ask me to be their gf or whatever..(if i can..still hoping.. :])i don't want to be in this situation anymore..it's just so hurtful ba..but den, i x pernah jerak..hmmm..sot sot ada juak me tok..haih~ meeza, meeza..why la u x pernah jerak oo? hmm~ dat's life den..my simple answer..everyone mmg mcm ya..i guess..haih~ life, life..so complicated but den u just haf to lead it ur way to make it better..hmmm..i'm so tired being bullied by lovers dh..oh god, i hope u will hear my *ngerepak*..amin~
with ♥,
-Meeza-
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